btamialis2008

so yeah, i got complaints, so i'm typing a real journal. :) I went to see the pictures of my dad. He looked so peacful, even though he was hanging from the garage... I miss him I kinda got in the habbit of smoking. I have never really been a smoker, but lately it has been a thing i turn to...I guess i just always ahve to have an addiction to something. If its not self harm, i guess its gotta be smoking... I put up nude photos. I was really nervous at first, but now that there up, i guess i fell a little better about it. I know a lot of people do it, so i thought "might as well!!" I am glad i did because it kinda raised my self-esteem a lit

I am so fucking tired of everybody. Everybody blows, thats why they're gay! Everybody just has to be against me. My thearapist is driving me crazy!! i just want to shoot a thousand people in the face. Why hasnt kevin johnston been on? i am worried about him. I miss him. we talk like everyday. I havent heard from him since before spring break. I know nobody is going to even read this. They dont care enough about me to read the entire fucking thing. Not that it matters because its not like i will get any feedback...seems how no one is ever on. i should just give up. I want to find someone from a different fucking country to move me over there

I finally got up enough nerv to just put my tities online. I feel kinda gross about it, but whatever. I am going shopping today, thats going to be fun..... BORED!!!